Wednesday, September 23, 2015

Changing blog.

This blog has been with me since secondary school and I guess its time for me to make a new one.
Will probably come back to recall my past when I am loss or confuse, other than that this will just be another dead blog.:)
It has too much memories here... My secondary life, Huiyi's memories, and how I was able to make it through everything from the break up.
Just hope my english wasn't that bad that is unreadable?😂😂😂.
Life been awesome for me this days so there is nothing much for me to express it out like I initially did.😁
Thats all ba!:)
It has been awhile since I saw Huiyi twitter or Insta, hope she is doing well.:).
Well... Its her after all, she will make it somehow!😂😂😂
In the end... I nv regretted a single thing... It all became a catalyst to embark on my new journey...
だから, ありがとう。 。。

Accepting

Changes always occurs...
Where you go, where you are, it doesn't stops... Cause that is life... This is life...
So what can we really do with that, the thing is, we can't...
The only thing we can do is realise that we can only change ourself constantly, whether is good or bad it all depends on both our experiences, insights, courage.
We have no control over other people life, whether is their new gain arrogance, undecisive or pessimistic mindset etc.
The only thing we can ever do is accept who they are, there are too many people in life that is yet ready to be "unplugged".
But that also applies to ourselves...
Everyone is facing difficulties in their life, so be humble, polite, and respectful.
"Recognizing does not occur through your mouth, but by the words your surrounding spreads."

Thursday, September 17, 2015

Productive day!

It was really fun bonding with all of them back in NYP. I miss the feeling of family in it.:).
We did forfeit together even though only the loser team is require to do, train as hard as we can working towards the IVP competition. Miss this feeling, though there were some mistakes pick out through the whole process in terms of planning for games and trainings, still thats how we learn from it and advance further.:)
Been training ce shou after knowing some of my mistakes i pick out in my ce kong, shall really go back to basics and pick things up from there again one by one.:)
And I still manage to do front hand flip after so long.:P. Shall slowly progress to back hand flip since bunny princess is still gonna take awhile before we could train together, so I might as well learn some things in my free time as well.😁.
Though I shall not do in gym kraft unless with bunny princess...
Having too much facilities is actually bad... Cause what I wanna conquer is the fear and limits, if I depend too much on those it won't be hitting my target. Of course that increase the risk of injuries, but if the people in the past could master all this without mattress nor carpets, I don't see why this generations is lacking that...
Of course, its my preference, everyone have different views so lets not collide our own believes if you have one.:)


Wednesday, September 16, 2015

Just... Leave me alone...

Let me do what I want...
Your no longer here, you don't belong here anymore, you should not be worrying about me or having any connections with me any longer...
Cut me totally off... From your mind...
You have a bf now, someone who is willing to do so much for you...
Thats why... You should already forget about me... Forget all thats happen, I am the only one who shall keep those memories until I find that someone who could pull let me have the courage to love again...
My words were harsh but all I want is you to leave me, cut all connections with me and only have him in mind.
So really... Leave...
Find any reasons to cut me off from your mind, whether is treating me as parasites or whatever.
I will just keep my promise... To watch over you... Silently in the shadows...

Get the fuck lost.

Been receiving questions on my ask.fm 4-5 days ago.
Tbh, your a fucking retard. I don't care who you are (though I already know who you are) but please mind your own fucking business like seriously.
I choose the way I live cause its how I wanna be right now, I can't be like her and I am not her, find bf so fast. Like I said Idw judge so don't make me say anything more about her, let me at least keep the good memories so I won't hate.
From the way you say things I could tell that immaturity of yours when it comes to love and that uncontrollable emotions you have when I just don't agree on what you say.
From that I already know who questioned me, so really, fuck off. At least the way I live doesn't bring inconvenience to anyone in my life nor to yours. And I don't need your concern, you should worry more about yourself, you nv know when you will meet your end.
Even if I am single forever it doesn't concern you, don't be a bitch and act a annoymous and question me. Try harder so I won't know who you are, to that someone who doesn't even dare to talk to me straight forward.

Oh and btw~. Please grow up soon.:).
Ik a girl who is one year younger than you yet she is so much more mature compare to you... So please for god sake grow up.

Friday, September 11, 2015

Priorities.

Priorities are important in our lives, cause its show us what we should be doing right this moment and not about other irrelevant stuff...

1. Wushu
Well its not like who dk?:P. Always been putting it as my first priority even until now.

2. Familes and Friends
Its them that take me out of my stress zone. I need them in my life not just cause of that but they are important fragments in my life.:)

3. Studies
Well... I am suppose to place this first?:P. Oh well~~~.

Of course, it changes as times goes due to changes here and there. Human change so does our way of thinking changes.

But for now this are my priorities.:)

Wednesday, September 2, 2015

Dear 21st lady.

Hey... I just wanna say... Pls don't be sad...
Well... How should I start...
There are alot of times you really seem to be in pain but you always hide it and remain silent, whether its for the good or bad reasons Idk...
All ik is that... You are really a strong girl.☺. Among the girls I have seen your probably one of those who is the most independent and mature ones...
You always rely on yourself to do everything and usually stay silent about the bad stuff happening in life, probably thats why your strong... But you know...
If you can... do talk to me about it...
Well... Ik how it feels, to stay silent and hold everything yourself, by keeping quiet so you won't be a burden to anyone... But I also do know that... Too much will crush you down inside...
Of course... I am powerless to change anything for you even if you say it to me... But in my own range of abilities... I hope to take away the weight in your heart even just by a bit... Sorry... I am stupid... But thats the only way I think I can help you when your facing difficulties in life...

So yeah! Please be happy!😊
Will be by your side when you need me!😉

Tuesday, September 1, 2015

Worries.

Pampered...
Yeah you didn't read wrong, pampered.
I gotta admit it myself, I am really a pampered child. I grew up in a family where I have no worries about money, no worries on lacking monthly allowances, no worries with what kind of sudden situation will come in to our family...
Due to that, I lack the compassion and appreciation to it. Being the youngest in the family makes me even more than just a prince in it, it makes me a king...
Thats my biggest worries, my pampered attitude.
Why does it worries me? Well..., maybe cause I am getting older? Okay wait I am not that old to begin with!😂. So let just say I am gonna start on my 20s soon, and I definitely wanna be a man when I step out of my 10s, the expectations I have for myself.
So basically thats why I have been reflecting alot this few months, the things that been happening and the most heart breaking incidents...
Why? "Only by admiting oneself mistakes, than your able to start the next step to change it", kind of like my motto since 2 years ago?😊.
I always like to find fault for myself, bringing the negative to myself, and changing it to positive. Its kind of my way to improve, though Guangyao say it is a good way but not the right way cause its like I am promoting "Negativeness is good".
Negativeness is good, but who can really understand that? I think the ones reading also kind of confuse? I won't say much, brainstorm it yourself!😂.
So since its not the right way, I wanna try going straight to positive this time rather than making a big round for negative to positive.
Hope is works?😊.