Saturday, May 30, 2015

Hello "me"

Its been awhile since i started getting into blogging again, 3 years i guess since i last updated this blog?
So much things happen after leaving secondary school life, went to poly, get to know new people, be with the girl i thought would be my forever,learning wushu from shifu...Life been too busy...
Its been a total of 6 years since i really started wushu...Without it, i guess i might just be a wandering dog fooling around,not being able to see myself truely...My sincere gratitute for its very existence,if not i wouldn't have all this in life now... Learning took place everywhere i go as long as related to wushu... It just seems like endless lesson... Yet there is also an unstoppable force pushing to it...

I met this girl at NDP... We experienced so much together through thick and thin... I broke her heart once, got her back once...
She might not be the best girl you can have in the world, but to me she is beautiful... We do fight... and i would always blame her for being this and that... i would say she isn't good enough... Thinking back... I was really a jerk...
Now she say... She doesn't have feelings for me anymore... Humans change... Ik that... This shouldn't be the first time i have to experience this pain...I deserve it this time... But... I really want her back... alot... to the point i might lose myself sometimes when i am suppose to be myself and not match up to her expectations...Or maybe i am assuming her expectations again...
I really don't wanna give up on this relationship... I Love Her... But she no longer Loves me anymore... All the promises about forever is gone...
All I can do now is try my best... To get her back while being myself...Just myself...

The promises we made... I still hold it in my heart...