Monday, September 10, 2012

I am a dreamer since kid , ever since I was age of 10 it was too common for me to start imagining my self as some kind of super hero  . Of course , this still happens to me now , n much more worse than ever...
I could start to imagine myself as a person with some powers , but not one with absolute power since my soul does not except that a human could be perfect . I face trails in my "day-dream" . In the past , I would imagine myself as some kind of hero (especially ultraman) , saving the world everytime without failing .But as time slips , I began to be passionate about love , I imagined a girl which I would like to meet in reality , falling in love and having a hapy family . Of course , the super-hero thing was not cut off , I would still imagine myself as a person saving people , especially her ....
Music was a form of my background music for my "movie" , it would always bring me to that world everytime I hear one . Through music , emotions changes , so does my "movie" , sometimes music would take me to a mind concept of destroying everything , and some takes me to be motivated , some even have me being able to really sense the greatness of love and care . Though I know its not realistic , yet that still attracts me ...
Humans are strange beings , everyone is ...
A world I create only for myself , in psychological fact , this occurs when one tries to escape from reality , you probably could say I am one of them , yet not...
In reality , people would call me random and optimistic . Which I don't believe that is the real me , more of I have create someone that is not me just to suit others (which probably didn't work well) .
To be honest , I don't wanna have too many friends , I only want to have friends that is worth a billion times than those who are self-centered , but the reality is harsh ... You can nv find a friend like this , some died without one , some betray by their trusted mates , what more would be humans dream of having friends like that after all this occuring ?
The feeling of wanting to escape from this world , abandoning it n going somewhere far , probably this feelings created my "movie" .
Maybe you would call someone like me weak ....
A soul to dream , that what was created in us humans since the time of adam and eve . Yet without reasons , I don't believe we would need this ability ...
I hope something just occurs in my life , a change , something that would change my world . I don't need to be rich , wanting a happy life with my love ones would just be enough ....
I would like to go somewhere far away in the future , probably I will find hopes in other places ...
Therefore I will work hard , hard enough to achieve it ...