Saturday, January 28, 2012

Woke up in a epic way today,thought today got school,so when the moment I woke up,I thought I was late for school...Hais.When to play pool with stanley at Orchard.Fun but tiring...
Too me now my parents r now strangers rather than family,they don't understand me n all those stuff...Stupid sia...
Missing u again,we were planning to go out today,but u went to his house...Guess I really not important anymore le huh...

Friday, January 27, 2012

Today wake up in a "off" mode.Was sleepy,trained last night.Guess I was trying to make myself tired so that I won't 胡思乱想.Y my school all the teachers whos surname r eng that kb!!!Lol.Kenneth Eng left the school for course,happy no one patrol around reccess for 4 months le,end up another Mr Eng come up n patrol...Was playing the piano by the way,my daily routine for reccess n lunch...
Gained alot of knowledge from jiao lian today,will be looking forward learning more from him...
Heart feels so empty,u seem to change alot...Guess that happens when u have a bf ba...Hais.Guess we can't be the same anymore...Gonna lose a friend very soon...U became like "her",drifting away from me...Can I ask u to stay...?

Thursday, January 26, 2012

Thought it through.The conclusion is "U happy,I happy" ,thats all.We change so much for the past few days,u seem colder n I seem so bother about u n him,if this continues someday we r gonna drift away.I will hid everything away,act as if nothing has happen...
Haha,so now u r still my mulaohu n I'm still your mehmeh~.But I guess sooner or later this mehmeh will lose it purpose soon...
Didn't eat for the whole day,a morning milk tea bought from the coffee shop could keep me the whole day full...Scary?Kind of weird,I thought I will eat alot for dinner,end up I only finish up the portion I usually ate in my normal days,strange...
Training today at Bishan,throwed all my emotions in...Was having difficulties in breathing,maybe I am still weak afterall...
My concentration for this year :
1.If possible continue piano.
2.Wushu must keep getting better,no excuses
3.Keep a good temper n relationship

Wednesday, January 25, 2012

After school today,went to yew tee,planning to walk around to get my emotional settled.Thought of Jarrod so ask him out pei me,went to his house,than pool,than watch movie...
Watched "I NOT NAUGHTY" , some people say "WE NOT NAUGHTY" so I don't know which is right...
Was very emotional.Not caused by the movie,it was the length of the movie that makes me emotional,sounds silly but yes,it was the fact.
The movie was 2hr30min.The first thought that cross my mind when I heard about this is "For 2hr30min,his been feeding her for that long...".With that thought on my mind,the movie was totally spoiled,I don't think I was even watching it anymore.I was simply getting to emotional,haha...,hilarious huh?
Yet its the true.My emotional level is getting out of control,in reccess n lunch my first thought was "Hurry to MPH play piano",thats like the most effective way to release my emotions,but I guess thats only temporary,it always get backs.Haha,first time of my life for a girl,have I fallen for her that deep?This totally epic.Getting jealous n paronoid when she go out with another guy I don't know,but well,thats her privacy,I won't be a busybody,n I definitely don't wanna hear "ITS NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS" coming out from her,I think I may cry hearing that...
I don't get her...Y does she keep saying she is with "him" when I nv ask who r u with...R u simply making me suffer by getting me jealous?Or r u trying to tell me to give up?
Just let me stay by your side else,if your happy thats fine le...I don't ask for more...N u don't have to worry about anything,just act the way u always r,thats the u I know...7437559

Tuesday, January 24, 2012

Felt a bit awful today.My mum wake me up to eat breakfast,thought we were rushing to somewhere so I hurried,end up she slacking at home today watching drama.Zzzz.She told me later going out,so went back to sleep thinking she would wake me up,end up she so into her drama...
Was planning to go to yew te if she have no plans today,hais,today wasted.If I ever gonna own a house I think I wanna it to be at yew tee,I somehow feel so attach to this place...Wanna live at there again,this time permanently ba.So much memories there...
Today after eating dinner when to void walk around,feel so bored n stuffy inside...Missing her?Guess so haha...
People say I have a crush on her,but thats not what I think.If its a crush it should happen 2 years ago,y now?Nv realise my own feelings for 2 years until I finally get jealous...Hais.


If I am willing to do it,will u let me?

Monday, January 23, 2012

Today went to aunts house,got ang baos,than eat.Found myself playing the piano immediately after I enter,felt alot better playing it.Won 11 dollars,should be happy,but...
Father give me a gold ring today,telling me is heirloom from grandmother,call me must take care of it wisely,.Kind of scared to lose it.Mum was saying "Gold nowadays very expensive,take good care of it" when I told her.If I lose it I guess there will be alot of trouble...
Well,on the way my bro told me to throw away all emotions this year n work hard for O lvl.I agree...,but can I really do it?It feel so empty when i try to do there...
This year is too challenging,studies,social,wushu,n especially emotional feeling...
Hais.I think I getting over paronoid this days,the moment she nv sms me,I always think she is ignoring me...Haha...,I think what Huang Lao Shi say is right ba.
Relatives asked me got gf le ma,haha...,I wish I could but no for this year.
Tmr going out again.More praying n gambling stuff?Just burning time since CNY every year also same thing one...

(I love you...)

Sunday, January 22, 2012

I keep telling myself,as long she happy,I am happy,but can I really do it?I doubt myself...If she has a bf one day,what will I do?Will I wish her happiness?Or will I wish that she n her bf break?
I'm disgusting and I know that,I am not what people think of me...Deep in my heart,I know I curse people who stands in my way,I hate them,I wish they could just disappear...But yet in the end,I just act like nothing happen...

Haha.Its great no one comes to this blog anymore,I can say as much as I want in it.Have to write it down somewhere or else I think I will go crazy...

If u ever need me,I will always be there for u,so pls be happy...

Saturday, January 21, 2012

Guess no one come to this blog anymore...

Can I cry now?Cause I would really want to,yet no tears r coming out...Being honest to someone is not a good thing.I thought telling u my feelings our relationship won't change,u will still be the friend that is always kind,shy,always make me laugh,sometimes a bit crazy yet I always have fun with u...
But now,I guess I really don't know u afterall...I guess I should nv have tell u anything,we may have still be close friends...
Sorry if I make u awkard,I will just leave k?Pls be happy,u have great people around u.Be happy with that guy...